Amma told me I could always do whatever I wanted just as long as I kept working hard. She taught me from a young age to keep studying. I always cried to her whenever tuition bills came but she always told me there's always a way. She was my number one fan. So happy she was able to see me graduate one last time. She came to all my graduations--high school, Bachelor's, Master's, and Doctorate.
One thing that makes me upset was before she was diagnosed with cancer, I spent the week with her before the week I started residency to take her to her biopsy. She's normally a happy person, but I caught her silent and sad at that moment.
I said, "Amma, you sad?"
She said, "Yeah."
I said, "Why? For what?"
She said, "Bc I won't get the chance to see you really successful."
I said, "What do you mean? I graduated, got a job, drive a nice car, bought a new house."
She said, "Yeah, I mean see you REALLY successful with your own practice with Siobe and Jocelie... and I won't get to see any of my great-grandchildren."
At that point I told her, that no matter what, she will always be there in spirit. That she did a great job raising 6 amazing grandchildren.
She said, "I may not be rich, but I'm rich in my grandchildren. I'm very proud."
These past few days have been terrible for me, but I take solace in my grandmother's faith in God and her belief that she always says "when it's your time, it's your time." I knew she was ready. I knew she was tired. And I know I will see her again.